First and foremost I want to give God all the glory because this wasn't by my power or might. Pouring into this blog wasn't easy, I was scared of people seeing me for who I truly am. Yesterday, I was trying to convince my wife that once upon a time women saw me as a… Continue reading Life Was iTunes, Millsberry & Sour Pops (10th Year Anniversary)
Tag: Growth
Growing Pains
You see I’ve been going through growing pains Man this shit is so insane You build a life and realise it’s all in vain Where is this leading? I hope it’s not to no avail Real eyes realise real lies The veil is lifting What is it revealing? If anyone had told me that this… Continue reading Growing Pains
Untitled
It’s dark And it’s wet All my sins I confess This path I tread Is filled with blessings and neglects Father Please dispatch your reserves For I Your son I’m in the need of that well To replenish my soul It’s bright And it’s moist All my virtues I wear This seed I’ve planted Will… Continue reading Untitled
Self-Doubt Is A B****!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! All I want to do is scream, pull my hair out and slap myself constantly because why the f*** did I ever let myself fall into this pit of self-doubt. I did not realise I was going through it at the time but now looking back I am so annoyed at myself. Maybe because… Continue reading Self-Doubt Is A B****!
What Do You Do It For?
After doing something for a considerable amount of time, you may begin asking yourself, what are you doing it for? The goal you started off wanting to attain, you smashed that. Now you are left wondering if it was worth it. What are you pursuing? What did you gain if you still feel the same?… Continue reading What Do You Do It For?
Soul Search – Does Anyone Understand?
Part 1 - 28/03/2017 How do you find your soul? Some find their soul through God & religion, some find it by looking inwards and trying to figure out what truly matters to them. Is the journey to finding your soul only an internal thing or does it involve everything that makes us who we… Continue reading Soul Search – Does Anyone Understand?
Extending Grace
Where do I begin Grace is defined by Cambridge dictionary as: a quality of moving in a smooth, relaxed, and attractive way the quality of being pleasantly polite, or a willingness to be fair and honest approval or kindness, especially (in the Christian religion) that is freely given by God to all humans From the definitions given by Cambridge dictionary, grace is auralike thing. It is a way people act and move and it is something that our creator has bestowed upon us… Continue reading Extending Grace
22/01/24
It’s crazy 16 years later The truth finally released Itself I finally let myself be seen To people across the globe I finally shared how that day really transpired Never thought this day would come Especially to people I have never met Oceans & it’s oceans that divide us & it’s a lot of water… Continue reading 22/01/24
09/01/24
I am what I feel I am what I go through I am my childhood These scripts & scenes created this actor This actor that is unable to play certain roles This actor that picks and chooses his scripts now I am now wiser I am what I feel But I don’t have to feel… Continue reading 09/01/24
Burn Again – 07/05/21
I had to let this fire burn again I’m up again I don’t wanna burn out I’ve been running through these streets tryna figure out a plan Cause it all gotta pan out See I took some time out It’s been blurry, I’ve been tired & I just didn’t know where I stand at But… Continue reading Burn Again – 07/05/21
Die To Be Reborn
This is less about rebranding yourself in the eyes of the public & more about rebranding yourself in the eyes of your self. This is about shedding away old skin, old habits, old comfort patterns, old ways of thinking & coming to terms that the ways of the old do not cut it no more.… Continue reading Die To Be Reborn
Pursuit of Happiness
Over the years, from a 9 year old to nearly turning 22 in a few weeks. There's something that has stood clear about me, that I can see and people that know me can see also. I don't like to be alone. The thing is, I am always alone. But I am not. From a… Continue reading Pursuit of Happiness
Lurking
Where I’m At (Day God Knows What) I am failing. Well I am not failing but I am currently losing to the other side of me. I started this growth, finding myself. Defeating my demons, whatever you want to call it phase in high spirits. I wrote for some days straight then it began to… Continue reading Lurking
Day 8 – No You Do Not Like Me
My answer to when people say they like me.This is how the conversation would typically go.. G - I like you M - Lol no you don’t, you just think you do G - wtf yes I do, why do you think I don’t? M - Well why do you like me? I find it… Continue reading Day 8 – No You Do Not Like Me
Day 5 – Communicating
I’m scarred I am scarred and I am only just noticing. It is of no surprise to me to that I am. I mean it has been at least 13 years of me growing, attempting to communicate with others, people I like. It ended with mostly rejections and ‘aww, any girl would lucky to have… Continue reading Day 5 – Communicating
Day 4 – Write The Eulogy You Would Love To Be Read At Your Funeral.
I’ve had this title in my notes for 7 months now so here goes...Quam Balogun, my loving husband grew to be the man he wished to become. It was never straightforward and he did not always have it together. There were days he cried, got angry, lashed out, ran, hid and abused those close to… Continue reading Day 4 – Write The Eulogy You Would Love To Be Read At Your Funeral.
Day 3 – Pursuit Of Me
The journey of finding myself. First thing, you never find yourself. You are always growing. Learning new things, liking new things thus you are always changing. But the journey to find and understand oneself is a trip we all set off on. Understanding oneself equates to an unmeasurable amount of happiness. Some find what they’re… Continue reading Day 3 – Pursuit Of Me
Day One
Today is the 22nd of January and I have decided to embark on the journey of writing at least one piece of writing everyday till God knows when. Not every piece will be posted because quality will differ. I don’t know where to begin so I’ll start with where I am right now. I have… Continue reading Day One
False Idols
False idols, false role models, spot them and stop believing in them. A false idol/role model to me is an individual that claims to be perfect. Claims to do no wrong, claims to never have made mistakes, never to have succumbed to his or her temptations. Tries to paint this picture of an innocent, pure… Continue reading False Idols
The Road Less Traveled
Everyone is on a journey to reach a certain destination. To reach self-actualisation, the pinnacle. Our idea of self-actualisation differs. It differs because we are all different people but it tends to have similarities. The journey to reach such a place is one that is often discussed. Some people think there's a certain route to… Continue reading The Road Less Traveled
Self Destructive
Someone very close and special to me recently said to me that it seems I'm on a self destructive path. I'm on the path of trying to rid every good thing in my life or potential good thing and it made me realise, yes. I am a self destructive person. The reason behind this? I… Continue reading Self Destructive
‘How Many Likes Do You Get On Insta?’
Does the amount of likes or attention you receive on social media make you feel like you're better than the next person? Do you let social media control how high your self esteem/confidence is? Do you only exist on the web and go missing in reality? Social media has become a way of life and… Continue reading ‘How Many Likes Do You Get On Insta?’
The Race
'Everything is connected. The world will take me where I need to go. I am a leaf in the stream of creation' - Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency. My Race I am a big believer in destiny. We all have a reason for being alive, we all have a purpose. That is why the earlier… Continue reading The Race
Letter To My Unborn Child
I wonder the day I'll see you The day I'll carry you in my arms The day my life will have meaning I can't wait to see you Give you the world Give you everything I couldn't have I'll have to find someone worthy Worthy of bringing you into this world And the way things… Continue reading Letter To My Unborn Child
Are You Okay?
The daily question we ask, the daily question we get asked, the question we never really answer. I feel like the question does not get enough thought and process it deserves or maybe I am just "deep". We are so quick to say yes I am good, I am okay or whatever answer we have… Continue reading Are You Okay?
The Cost Of A Pound
I had thought long and hard about how to start this blog, what to write about first, what points to touch on, whether I should do it or not. Life is a challenge and attempting to win against the odds may leave you as the odd one out. We all aspire to be happy but… Continue reading The Cost Of A Pound
Letter To My Past Encounters
I never appreciate things/people when it is a part of my present. I always tend to look back and think oh shit that was the piece that sparked this part of me and then I begin to feel this pit of sadness growing but I love that I can say yeah I fucked with this… Continue reading Letter To My Past Encounters
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