Today is the 22nd of January and I have decided to embark on the journey of writing at least one piece of writing everyday till God knows when. Not every piece will be posted because quality will differ.
I don’t know where to begin so I’ll start with where I am right now. I have recently begun a social media break, a break I intend to keep up till at least June.
Why?
I’m tired, tired of the constant scrolling, the constant distraction, the constant temptations, doubting myself, insecurities creeping in.
I’m tired of losing track of my thoughts, I always thought I was good at communicating till it dawned on me that the skill I demand from the people around me is a skill I’ve yet to acquire.
Social media is the worst thing created
There are obviously more and badder evils in play but social media is up there.
What am I searching for?
- I’m searching for clarity
- Strength, in all aspects. I want to be more able in everything I do.
- I want to read & write more
- I want to quit addictive behaviours, I need to find myself away from all that I indulge in to pass time and to make me feel good temporarily.
- I want to train harder at the gym, social media in a way stops me from that.
- I want to be aware and present more, I want to offer more than my physical presence.
- I want to grow into the man I wish to be.
- I still see myself as a seed that needs/wants to grow into a flower. I couldn’t grow in my previous surroundings.
Reading and music are the only things that keep me sane. When I find myself lost and needing to refresh my feed to lose myself in the activities of others, I go on Medium and read a piece to pass the time.
Meditation is also one thing I’ve started, anything to get in touch with my physical and mental self.
I want to grow this year. I want to hatch from this shell that I’m in. I want to purify this version of myself into a new updated one.
So here’s to day one of writing and day 8 of no social media and meditation.
POTS 