One of my favourite artists once said ‘spread your wings’ a quote I have been trying my hardest to live by since the first time I heard it, but it is hard sometimes.
Then Chance The Rapper came out with Colouring Book and said “when did you forget to fly”. I never really took it in. I never really thought about it until one day I was laid in my bed with a special someone and the line clicked and I asked myself ‘Quam when did you forget to fly?’
I mean I never really forgot how to fly or forgot that I was capable of flying, not in literally terms obviously (I am not Icarus) but in life and the situations I have been in. I am a confident guy who is very self-aware, I always make sure I say/do things with my chest as the saying goes. I have never stopped doing that but I have not flown lately for a long time. Why? You may ask, I think I have become too laid back, too happy. I have taken on Wale’s meaning to the word ‘shine’, ignoring negative energy. I never deep/feel things anymore, If I do not feel strongly about a situation then I am less likely to finally tell myself to spread my fuckin wings. You must feel it all or nothing at all.
Over expectations may be the reason I am so indifferent, because I always think why can’t they be more like me? Why can’t they think for themselves? Why, as humans are we so determined to self destruct? Why must we clip the wings of others in order to sore higher?
When you cannot get off your feet and your efforts only ever bring substandard results. You would rather not try to try than continuously try and fail. You cannot lose a race you never started.
However a friend of mine told me it is the experience that counts and another told me to live in the moment but the thing is I always live in the moment, or so I thought. Although lately I have been more cautious, my time has become more precious to me so I make sure I spend it more wisely than before.
I met someone new, well I have known the person for sometime but I have met them in a way I never really expected to meet them before and I am holding back from spreading my wings. It is such an effortless situation and I know I will end up getting lost in their sauce and really, if I end up flying, I might just end up like Icarus and that is something I’m trying to avoid.
So I never really forgot how to fly, I guess I just choose when to fly and when to walk.
Have you forgot to fly?
Hak Gway
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